Sorry seems to be the hardest word

Salam 'alaik.

Today is 2nd of December. less than one month left before my age is added to another number.
Alhamdulillah masih punya peluang masih punya ruh.

It is like one year and more and i just getting not much the same. too many things happen since then.
time flies very fast. too many unexpected things, happen at unexpected time.

how should i know what will happen in 3 years time ? people change eventually. that is the hardest part to
dwell and i just can't trust anything anymore. past experiences really teach me something.

anyway, i have really something to ask on but i just can't. now im just hoping things will be easy for me
and pray that He guide me to a clear path on future undertaking. it is really a cracking head stuff when i think about it. since i guess no one will saw this entry i shall assume this is kind of .. hurm hobby ?
nah i don't know. maybe i just need to write something somewhere.

weird but true, sometimes things are not really the same as what we think of or what is really happen. it really is not. what we say and write also sometimes does not really reflects whats inside.

sorry